What I Wanted to Be Growing Up

  1. I never really had an idea of what I wanted to be. I still don't. On the one hand this allows for freedom and adaptability. On the other, life can feel a bit directionless. I don't know what I want to be even today.
  2. I wrote a note at age 8 that my mom still has that says I was running away with my then best friend to train horses in Kentucky. I doubt I knew where Kentucky was. I still wonder what life would be like if I'd followed through on it.
  3. characters in Tom Cruise movies: I wanted to fly fighter jets and was obsessed for a long time with planes. But I am bad at math and had terrible grades so pilot was out. Then I wanted to be a sports agent. But I'm not a-type enough and it's competitive and while I still wrestle with sports law for fun, that's the extent of it.
  4. A writer. When I was young and full of ideas and vigor. But the ideas left and vigor never really was my think so now I try to craft wit in small doses.
  5. Good. I wanted to be good. Mostly this translated to dutiful. And then it became apparent that dutiful was unfulfilling and I wasn't really happy. So I stopped doing that. But I still try to be good. In really small quiet ways though. I don't like flash.