And still learning...

Well, i have been doing my job in the speciality I love for 23 years, from time to time I am having so much fun that I forget that it is just that....
  1. I drove Tuesday 5 hours to Germany for a meeting with a customer/partner. The meeting was for Wednesday 10 am
  2. Rewind a bit: we have a job vacancy for a Senior job, and as per company policies, even if there is a strong candidate identified, the manager is obliged to open the applications and make interviews
  3. Well, as a good girl I was waiting for this process, at least to have a fighting chance for it
  4. So Tuesday evening a few hours before the important meeting my manager send me a "casual email": "by the way we gave the senior job to E, let me know if you will like to discuss"
  5. About E: great helpful smart good colleague guy, I myself was the one that gave his cv to the manager for hiring from outside the company. I have nothing against him and yes I know he can do good as a senior.
  6. Well, needles to say I was devastated. I accept that the fact that I do my job for 5 years, have the experience, the knowledge and the customers have give excellent feedback, but as we Colombians say: "I am not a golden coin for everybody to like me" and I had that, lets call it female 6 sense, that my boss plainly cant stand me
  7. Well, as all women will understand I needed to put a poker face during that night dinner....
  8. The next day during the meeting a presentation about the new company structure was shared with the high levels of management at the customer, and yes, the change was already reflected there AND i was already "sure" to move to Germany and to work at their facilities as the liaison for the new business!!
    A job that was just discussed 2 months ago, but NEVER I received the conditions of the move or benefits... Its an international move that means we go from double income to single one
  9. Well, my poker face this tome was a very not convincing one...I specially lost my voice when the customer team started to ask details of my move, time frame etc...I know where I was and how to respond politely and professionally but my voice sounded funny..
  10. I forgot to mention that my Regional Manager was giving the presentation, a guy that I trained ( me being a normal engineer needed to train a new guy that came from outside to be my senior for a job I applied.... )
  11. So, I see a pattern I see now how the game needs to be played. All was already decided 3 months ago and I get to be brought up to speed just hours before a big presentation...
  12. I know I might not be the right person for that job, that is not the issue, its the "jumping the legal processes" and to be treated as, well I feel, like trash, worthy to be informed last minute
  13. My heart wants to make all type of scenarios, but mu head tells me to cool down and be smart.... Still hurts to "wake up" and know that nobody is a real honest colleague...
  14. I am latin and my mind sometimes do not understand the "game of work" is played in a big US corporation... I act from the heart, i am sincere I help always I treat people as people a d keep their feelings into account, I "wear my hearts as a crown" all the time..... So I expect to be treated likewise..
  15. I will keep doing my job as good as before, i am professional and smart enough to know that if I do different I will be closing future doors
  16. But any word of wisdom from all of you will be greatly appreciated...
    Thank you for them and for reading...