Whenever I'm Most Successful I'm Most Sad

I don't know why this is. My body cannot handle success?
  1. Theoretically I have been "killing it" here in LA.
    Cool job ✅ Doing good work ✅ Schoolwork ✅
  2. Social life ❌ Environment ❌ Health ❌
  3. ‼️‼️‼️‼️Anxiety‼️‼️‼️‼️
  4. ‼️‼️‼️Loneliness‼️‼️‼️
  5. 🌀💠🌀🛄🛂🚭 Me 🚹Ⓜ️🌀💠🛂🚭
  6. And I don't know how to fix it, either.