Am I weird?

Because I'm alone in the first apartment I pay rent for and I'm drinking wine I stole from my roommate in a red solo cup. Very College or very pathetic?
  1. I'm a 20 year old college student who actively likes school.
    I like school so much I'm willing to dedicate the next 10-15 of my life to it #plsletmeintomedschool #doctorsprobabalydontusehastags
  2. I am a female who doesn't enjoy shopping
    Maybe the fat, ugly, middle schooler in me will always haunt me and my shopping habits.
  3. I'm almost 20 and I've never been out on a real date.
    Literally typing this had me in tears. Rationally I shouldn't validate my self worth based on who wants to take me to dinner but god damn does this make me weird or pathetic?
  4. I don't know if I'm happy or not.
    Is that possible? Can I just be apathetic to happiness so much that i really don't even care?
  5. I irrationally hate Blonde people.
    You know that stray dog your friend adopted when you were younger but the dog didn't like men because it had been abused. I am the dog and blonde people have been my tormentors since birth. I shouldn't judge a whole population but I'm very skeptical of them.
  6. I don't understand rap or country music.
    I TRY I really do try to understand why people would listen to that type of music but sometimes it makes me want to scream, vomit and cry all at the same time.
  7. Am I weird for writing a list of my insecurities for a group of strangers to read?
  8. In high school I wanted to be a comedy writer and in college I want to be a doctor. Does this drastic career path make me less viable to be a doctor?
  9. Is it possible to feel like an imposter all of the time.
    Why do I Diminish my own accomplishments? At what age was I like "no, you're not allowed to be good at things."
  10. Is life strange of am I?
    Still figuring this one out. Would like feedback from fellow life survivors.