Things that Resistance is saying to me
Real Talk: We're about to preview Once and alllll the demons are coming out to play. Steven Pressfield fans know what's up. Those Buddhism-inclined like myself know this is Mara. I see you, Mara.
- •You're not a good enough musician to be in this company
- •The way that you have to separate from the cast to stay focused is really evidence that you don't know how to belong in a group
- •The only time you can get a man to look at you with love is in fictional environments. Also, you only get to fall in love in fictional environments
- •You can't convincingly portray being in love because you've never known real love
- •You're clearly meant to be alone and your inability to accept it is embarrassing
- •How can you expect to know how to play a scene where you're playful and fun when you're neither in real life?
- •There's no point in loving music. It's just another unrequited experience
- •You can't really be vulnerable. That's why no one wants to be with you
- •BUT THEN ALSO when I am actually vulnerable: There's no point. It clearly doesn't make you lovable
- •Everyone except you can see why no one wants to be with you
- •You're too old to play this part convincingly
- •You're not valued because you're not as funny or talented as your leading man
- •Your leading man doesn't like or respect you. Look how much more fun he has with everyone else!
- •I'm exhausted.