Thoughts From My Mother's Hospital Room

Today, true story.
  1. I hate this.
  2. Should I post anything about this on Facebook?
    No. Not this time.
  3. This would be so much easier if I wasn't a doctor.
    I think it might be better to not know all of the worst things it could possibly be, to know the worst potential outcomes.
  4. This would be so much harder if I wasn't a doctor.
    I feel more in control because I understand the language. And I know most of her doctors and many of the nurses. I think I would feel more helpless if I knew nothing. The reality is, though, that I'm not in control at all.
  5. I'm not in control at all.
  6. I never thought I'd say these things:
    My mother is an alcoholic. My mother is in delirium tremens. Alcohol is killing my mother.
  7. How do we move forward?
    I have no idea.
  8. Should I ask for prayers?
  9. I will not post about this on Facebook.
  10. Good God, these hospital gowns are atrocious.
  11. I hate this.