I'M READING AGAIN

  1. I love to read. Last year, I made an effort to read only books written by women.
  2. I succeeded (not that it was especially hard), except that I briefly broadened it to women and/or people of color so I could read Bryan Stevenson's book (which I abandoned because of a chapter that made me weep) and I accidentally read a book about deaths in Grand Canyon written by two men.
    I was trying to reassure myself that I would not die there, and paid no attention to the authors.
  3. This year I've been dealing with yucky stuff.
  4. In addition to depression, I've had increased anxiety from some stuff going on. I'm in a lot of therapy, and feeling better, but 2016 has been a bummer so far.
  5. It's made it hard to focus, and I haven't gotten any pleasure from reading.
  6. The first of the year, I had to quit reading a book called "The Enlightenment of Nina Findlay" by Andrea Gillies. I liked it, but it's about a woman whose marriage fell apart, and I can't read that right now.
  7. Then I bought Jonathan Franzen's "Purity." That was what I most looked forward to during my year of women, and I was so excited to read it.
  8. But I don't like it! I loved the Corrections and Freedom, in that way where you want to read all night so you can get to the end, but you also want to savor it, because you know you'll be sad when it's over.
    I don't love this. I've read three or four chapters, and I don't think I can read anymore.
  9. So then I just gave up for awhile.
    I briefly tried to read "Rosemary" by Kate Clifford Larson. It's about Rosemary Kennedy. What I read was moderately interesting, but I don't like biographical books on my best days.
  10. But then I was saved by Kent Haruf. I should have known he would save me. His books are so quietly powerful to me. And the setting of Holt, Colorado reminds me so much of where I grew up (which was Holt County, Nebraska, but that's not why.)
  11. I read "Eventide." I bought the paperback, then lost it, so I bought it on my Kindle and finished it. I finished it!
  12. And then I read Kent Haruf's "The Tie that Binds."
  13. Then I read "The Nest," by Cynthia D'Aprix Sweeney.
  14. Now I'm reading Ghettoside by Jill Leovy, a nonfiction book I found at the library. It's about murder in South Central Los Angeles. It's a little bit white savior-y, which is problematic. But I love the true crime stuff.
  15. I'm also reading To Kill a Mockingbird.
    Secret shame: I have never read it. I have many times pretended I've read it.
  16. And I have Ta-Nehisi Coates' book waiting for me.
  17. So that's three finished, two in progress, one on deck.
  18. I think I'm back, baby!