THINGS I HAVE THOUGHT, FELT, OR DONE DURING BOUTS OF DEPRESSION

  1. "Four Weddings and a Funeral will save me."
  2. I don't want to know any of the people I know, I only want to know new people
  3. How do I stop living in my brain, just for a couple days?
  4. The classic "stay in bed until you are literally shamed into getting up because time has looped back around again and it's already dark outside, and the time is PM"
  5. That thing of where the static bad thoughts sit in your head for so long your body kind of starts shaking and you hadn't realized it
  6. "Gilmore Girls will save me."
  7. Soup? Soup.
  8. I once was so panicky and crying about all the stuff in my head that I burnt the crescent rolls I was excited to snack on, and subsequently just cried on the floor next to the oven. Mourning my warm flaky bread.
  9. I have listened to Rufus Wainwright's Poses album and nothing else for at least two full days in a row
  10. Then I moved on to Cat Power's The Greatest
  11. Nothing. Just nothing!
  12. "No but I think Hugh Grant is literally going to save me."