On losing my first resident
- •Working as a CNA with the elderly, I knew at one point the day would come when one of the residents I cared for would pass away.
- •It was last Monday.Work was no different than any other night except that night the nurses were different than the ones that normally work. Also Becca didn't work that night. I was basically just going about doing my job. Having different people around and Becca not being there really sucked when it happened.
- •It was dinner time and I was feeding one of the residents in the lounge when Tommy died.He died in his chair behind me. All the nurses came in and checked and they pronounced him.
- •As they took him away I had to get up and leave.I went into a room with the one aide and I was trying not to cry. The one nurse came in and asked me if I was okay and that's when I started really crying. She gave me a hug and told me to go on a walk.
- •I went outside called my dad and cried.It was overwhelming. I haven't experienced much death in my life and it was hard seeing him there and knowing he was there right behind me when he passed.
- •I had been his aide the week before and took care of him every night.I knew he wasn't doing well. It broke my heart every night when I put him to bed seeing him suffer. But he always smiled at me before I left and told me I was doing a good job.
- •What made me feel better was my dad told me that I gave him the care that he needed and that he appreciated it and he wasn't suffering anymore.
- •I always try and care for each of my residents the best I can, but now I do it every night thinking that I could be caring for them for the last time and try to make it the absolute best.
- •I don't really know what I'm saying, but I'll never forget him.