Times when I realized the way people see me is not the way I see myself
this is low key a humble brag list but also it shows nothing is at it appears (aka I appear calm, cool, and collected on the outside when in reality I'm a jumbled up mess)
- •When a girl on my soccer team told me that whenever she gets the ball, she tried to be more like me since I stay so composed and don't panicThis FLOORED me because all I do is panic when I get the ball and just try to get it off my foot as quickly as possible
- •When on three separate occasions, three different people expressed their surprise to finding out I'm a junior. Each person said "I always thought you were a senior. I guess it's because you're so confident"And each time under the surface I was like ??? I'm literally just stumbling through life with little clue about anything but they see confidence somehow
- •When my friend wrote me a card for my birthday and he started it off with, "You are, in all sincerity, one of the kindest, friendliest, and most genuine individuals I have ever had the pleasure of not only meeting, but befriending."I would never use any of those adjectives to describe myself. The mosh I would describe myself is "kind of nice"
- •I'm sure there are other people that see me as worse than I see myself but I think I've repressed those memories. Oh well.