A quick reflection of the things I learned, discovered, and experienced.
  1. I started the year running around NYC intoxicated by alcohol and love with my favorite boy
  2. I ended the year wanting someone by my side, but that only made me feel more alone
  3. I finally made some of my own friends
    And they're some of the greatest people I've ever met in my twenty-one years of existence
  4. I spent way too much time and energy on people who didn't deserve it
  5. I didn't give enough time or energy to people who probably did deserve it
  6. I finally developed a better relationship with my mom
  7. I fell back in love. Over and over again. Hard, beautifully, unapologetically.
    With the same person each time.
  8. I fell out of love. Miserably, regretfully, lonely.
  9. I was confused about love.
  10. I fell asleep next to new, wildly imaginative, and beautiful people
  11. I woke up next to new, wildly imaginative, and beautiful people
  12. I traveled to Europe
  13. I moved into my own apartment
    And never felt so lonely, elated, and excited for life all at the same time.
  14. I completed one year of classes at Playhouse West Brooklyn Lab
    And grew tremendously as an actor. And finally grew to have confidence in that.
  15. I got cast in Waiting for Lefty
  16. I learned some people just can't be trusted. Even when you want to put every ounce of trust you have into them.
  17. I turned TWENTY-ONE and spent the night pouring down alcohol, face timing my boyfriend, and having the time of my life with a group of wonderful, wonderful people.
  18. I (sadly) learned that even the best things do truly, at some point, come to an end. No matter how much you try to hold on. No matter how beautiful.
  19. I learned to believe in myself. That I'm awesome and anybody who doesn't see that can see themselves out. Ain't nobody got time for that.
  20. I realized that there is a never-ending laundry list of things I want to do and I don't do much to accomplish many of them.
    I learned I need to be more proactive.
  21. I discovered that positivity is the key happiness. That happiness is not something to be chased after or a destination; but a way of being.
  22. I learned that my life is in my own hands. Not some boy's. Not my parent's. Not anybody or anything else's. Mine.
  23. And it's time to start taking control of that.