thoughts [saturday 11pm]

Idk I'm sad so I'm just spilling my thoughts
  1. I think the reason as to why I enjoy getting to know and listening to people so much is because I feel like nobody ever listens to me.
  2. For some reason, all the boys I meet who would be perfect for me are in relationships.
    I tell myself there's a lesson in there somewhere. I keep searching for it, but I only seem to end up sad, longing.
  3. My ex boyfriend sent me a video collage of our trip to Amsterdam we took almost two years ago???? At 8:23am.
    I'm super uncomfortable. I don't understand why. I didn't know how to respond, so I just didn't.
  4. I'll never understand why my mom is so bitter and negative.
    She can never be positive, and will never allow anyone around her to be positive. It's exhausting.
  5. Wow I really love learning about people.
    The more you get to know people, the more you realize everyone is such an individual. It's the most fascinating.
  6. Aside from the way it connects people, I fucking hate technology.
  7. I really want a penpal.
    I just want to write to someone who's only interest is to learn more about me, and vice versa. Nobody listens anymore. Everyone's so one track minded.
  8. If you look into an animal's eyes, you can see their soul. It's the most humbling and will remind you how beautiful this world is.
  9. Life is so fucking weird.
  10. All anybody wants to talk about these days is themselves.
  11. Sometimes I wonder if people forget they're talking to other human beings just trying to make it through the day and that's why they're so mean.