WEEKLONG COUNTDOWN LIST: THE 5 MOST SIGNIFICANT TURNING POINTS/MOMENTS OF MY LIFE SO FAR

Inspired by @jenna and @veshecco
  1. 5. Confession 2007
    I had a huge crush on my friend Alex and everyone knew it. My friends knew it before I did. So one day I decided that I should be the one to tell him I liked him. So little sixteen year old me told him "I like you" and he didn't feel the same way but he hugged me afterwards. He became my best friend for a little while (until he got a girlfriend and we lost touch). After that I've decided to be upfront with all the guys I like and tell them how I feel.
  2. 4. My first depression 2003
    Sometimes I'm not sure if it happened in seventh or eighth grade but I was definitely in middle school when it happened the first time. For about two weeks I didn't know what was wrong with me. I wasn't happy and felt like I would never be happy again. This is a lot to feel when you're 12. It's a turning point because I went through a depression almost every year of my life until I was 18.
  3. 3. Choosing to go to school away from home 2009
    I wasn't even 18 yet and something life changing had just happened. I got accepted to my top choice UC Santa Barbara and told my parents I was going. When I went to visit the campus l was depressed but my dad encouraged me to go. It was easily the best decision of my life until this point.
  4. 2. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder in 2009
    It was my senior year in high school and I had gone through a depression prior to having a manic episode. While I was having the manic episode I wasn't sleeping for over a week and was saying and doing things I wouldn't normally do. My family and friends noticed and tried to help me. Some parts are still fuzzy to me today. My older sister took me to a rehabilitation center and it was there that they diagnosed me.
  5. Acceptance was a journey
    At first I didn't want to believe that I could be bipolar. I had even jokingly told one of my friends I was bipolar before actually getting diagnosed. But for the longest time I thought that my manic episode was a one time thing. But when I looked at my moods for the past five or so years, I started to notice that I would get depressed at least once a year and then have a normal mood.
  6. I wasn't my regular self until my second quarter of my first year in college
    I was so heavily medicated that there wasn't any life in my eyes. I have a picture of that time and it hurts me to know that I was like that for my last year of high school. I went to prom on medication which sucked because I wasn't myself. I went to grad night at Disneyland on medication. I gained about sixty or so pounds because of the medication they prescribed me. My life has never been the same.
  7. I'm stable now but I've had many, many ups and downs
  8. 1. My dad passed away 2013
    Long story short, it was sudden. He had pneumonia and didn't make it. I had withdrawn from school because my anxiety had gotten that bad. I spent the last three months of my dad's life with him. On the night it happened I asked myself "should I even go back to school?" And I immediately thought that I had to go back and finish school for him which I did. Looking back, I know I made the right decision because even though I was unhappy when I went back to school, it wouldn't have compared
  9. Continued
    To staying home doing nothing. I got my degree for my dad but most importantly I got it for me
  10. So those are my turning points. It feels like they all happened within the last ten years. But I wouldn't be the person I am without these moments
    The whole confessing my feelings is minor to everything else I've gone through but a turning point nonetheless