things keeping me up tonight
a little insight into my mind when im anxious and can't sleep
- •worrying about meeting a new person tomorrow
- •worrying because i should be asleep already because i have to get up at 6:15am tomorrow.
- •worrying about my shoulder and the issues i've been having with it for almost a year now. I almost want to cry when i think about it
- •I want to sleep listening to music to quiet my thoughts but my headphones are too uncomfortable to allow sleep.
- •I want to be asleep. I know writing this list, the light of my phone is tricking my brain into not being tired.
- •but I need to get thoughts out somewhere and i cant turn on the lamp and write in my journal bc it'll wake up my husband.
- •my squat is really suffering because of my shitty shoulder and it's depressing bc i loved squatting but it's deteriorating.
- •why is housing so expensive? why did we have to move to colorado at the peak of everybody else moving to colorado?
- •I miss virginia. I want to move back home even if i suffocate in the humidity in the summer.
- •I need to sleep.
- •I want to sleep in the guest bed but i know it worries ryan when i do and it scares me when I hear creaks from that part of the house when im sleeping.
- •sleep sleep sleepI need to sleep.