Ways My Life Is Different Because of My Mother's Suicide

I was 20 years old when this happened.
  1. I know that everything will be alright. No matter what.
    Mom's life was so F'd up that she could see no way that it would ever be okay. I feel just the opposite; everything will always be okay. Always.
  2. I am able to not think about things.
    I wasn't able to think about my mom and her suicide for a long time and learned how just block it out. Now I can do that a out many subject. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing.
  3. I see the good in people, even people I don't like at all.
    I don't know what someone else is going through: nobody knew what my mother was going through. I accept people being rude or self centered because their whole life might be a disaster. I don't feel the need to spend time with them, but I don't judge them too harshly.
  4. I don't drink very much.
    After my mom killed herself I struggled with alcohol. I drank more than I should have, and I often drank alone. I really, really wanted to drink a lot; to drink myself into oblivion. Somehow I made a decision to face life sober instead. I drink now, but very seldom and I haven't been drunk except one time since.
  5. I had a lot of guilt about my father's death.
    My father died of brain cancer about six months after my mother killed herself. Mom's death was so hard on me because of the way she died, and I wasn't anywhere near done grieving for her, and I didn't suffer as much over my father's death. I had a lot of guilt about his for a long time.
  6. I have strong empathy for people when they lose their parents.
    I relive my parents' death, particularly my mothers and really feel for my friends. It's just never easy.
  7. I forgive easily.
    Life's too short to hold a grudge.