Because of You...

  1. I eat even less meat than I used to
  2. I tip better
  3. I finally watched Twin Peaks
  4. I read Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep
  5. I know what it feels like to love someone else
  6. I know what it feels like to love myself
  7. I don't want to leave
  8. I smile when I think of all your perfectly imperfect parts
  9. I try to be braver
  10. I want to make more art
  11. My world is bigger
  12. I finally learned how to make French toast
  13. I started listing again
  14. I got back in touch with my friend
  15. I've cried
  16. I realized I'm good at being there for people
  17. I've tried (and failed) to communicate my feelings
  18. I'm a total creep
  19. Everything feels more beautiful
  20. I've changed back into myself
  21. I write poetry
  22. I can't breathe
  23. I want everything
  24. I rediscovered LCD Soundsystem
  25. I listened to Bjork
  26. I read some books I'd been wanting to read for years
  27. I don't worry so much about what other people think of my clothes
  28. I've learned how to accept kindness and generosity
  29. I've learned that I can be weird and overwhelming and you won't abandon me
  30. I finally went to the Cherry Blossom Festival
  31. I take more risks
  32. I realized that most things aren't such a big deal
  33. I realized that I am capable of loving someone even when I know their flaws
  34. I want to be my best self
  35. I have a new dress
  36. I drive my poor friends nuts talking about you
  37. Everything makes sense (except you sometimes)
  38. I remember why I love this city so much
  39. I want to have adventures
  40. I'm trying to conquer the demons in my head that tell me I'm not good enough for you
  41. I wear more black
  42. I have new, better memories of old places
  43. I show up even when I'm anxious and awkward and sweating because my body can't handle humidity
    I don't let myself take any chance to spend time with you for granted, although I am usually late because I feel like absolute crap
  44. I had the guts to reach out to another of my favorite people, and I got to see him on his first trip home in years ❤️
  45. I started watching Rick and Morty and Futurama
  46. I'm working through my attachment issues
  47. I remember why I stopped drinking gin and tonics 🤦🏻‍♀️