THINGS I'M CONSTANTLY THINKING

recurring thoughts that are always rattling around in my brain
  1. Wait, is this what people do?
  2. Wait, is this what people think about?
  3. Wait, do I look weird right now?
  4. Wait, am I doing this right?
  5. Wait, am I happy?
    Well, I'm not unhappy.
  6. Ugh, why do I do that?
    Usually referring to events from years ago.
  7. Ugh, why did I say that?
    See above
  8. That would make a good opening line of a novel.
  9. I should write a novel.
  10. Wait, why don't I understand this?
    Everyone else gets it. What am I missing?
  11. Am I really, really stupid?
  12. Am I really, really smart?
  13. Oh my god, why do I think that?
  14. Why is everyone looking at me?
    They're not.
  15. Why do people who know less than me in my area of expertise get jobs while I struggle?
    aka Should I be kissing more ass?
  16. What am I even doing?
  17. I need to be a better person.
    I keep trying and I don't think I'm doing it right.
  18. I need to study that list I made of things I shouldn't say.
    And questions not to ask.
  19. I should apologize to that person.
  20. Am I doing enough?
  21. Am I reading enough?
    Am I well-read?