recurring thoughts that are always rattling around in my brain
  1. Wait, is this what people do?
  2. Wait, is this what people think about?
  3. Wait, do I look weird right now?
  4. Wait, am I doing this right?
  5. Wait, am I happy?
    Well, I'm not unhappy.
  6. Ugh, why do I do that?
    Usually referring to events from years ago.
  7. Ugh, why did I say that?
    See above
  8. That would make a good opening line of a novel.
  9. I should write a novel.
  10. Wait, why don't I understand this?
    Everyone else gets it. What am I missing?
  11. Am I really, really stupid?
  12. Am I really, really smart?
  13. Oh my god, why do I think that?
  14. Why is everyone looking at me?
    They're not.
  15. Why do people who know less than me in my area of expertise get jobs while I struggle?
    aka Should I be kissing more ass?
  16. What am I even doing?
  17. I need to be a better person.
    I keep trying and I don't think I'm doing it right.
  18. I need to study that list I made of things I shouldn't say.
    And questions not to ask.
  19. I should apologize to that person.
  20. Am I doing enough?
  21. Am I reading enough?
    Am I well-read?