Things we discussed in counseling today.

Because it was a rough one.
  1. Why I always close myself off from people.
    The secret is that I close myself off from myself too, so yeah that's fun.
  2. Why I feel the need to constantly make my family happy over my own happiness.
    I just really love them. But this has to change. I have to start taking care of myself. Obviously I can still love them and take their interesting into consideration, but I can't let them have this control over me anymore.
  3. How I need to start being honest with myself.
    I am gay. I have always been, and I always will be. However, convincing myself that this isn't a bad thing is the hard part. Convincing my parents that it isn't a bad thing is even harder.
  4. How I need to start surrounding myself with people who know what I'm going through.
    Go to Rainbow Alliance meetings and push myself to go to the LGBTQA+ office and just meet people on campus. I have to get out of my comfort zone and put myself out there.
  5. Meg.
    We always discuss Meg. I can't hold an entire conversation with anyone without discussing Meg. But she has become such a big part of my life, of course she has to be discussed in counseling.
  6. Different ways to come out to my parents.
    My mom wants grandchildren. That's all she ever talks about when I bring up dating girls. It's so selfish, I have to get her to see past that. To see my point of view. My dad's gonna be tougher to talk to about it, but I have to have mom on my side before I can go to him.
  7. Journaling.
    Getting my feelings and emotions out onto a piece of paper. I have a journal, but I think I'm gonna use this too. It's kinda nice that no one knows me on here.