both reasonable and unreasonable
  1. making eye contact with people i've hooked up with
  2. them being mean to me or making a rude comment or something like that
  3. being lost
  4. whether or not i look like i'm lost/if people can tell/if they think that's lame
  5. that no one considers me their best friend
  6. being ranked last in anything
  7. a weird souvenir box my mom got in wisconsin that looks like a tiny alien trapped in a crate and shakes when you push a button on its side
  8. being wrong
  9. that i lack dedication
  10. going places without knowing anybody
  11. that i'll never know "how to accept love"
    an ex's phrasing, not mine