Update on My Job Decision

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    I took the internship
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    Idk if it was the right choice but it was a choice
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    I went to bed nauseous and woke up nauseous
  4. β€’
    I called the woman at the job and I could literally feel her disappoint over the phone
    I was shaking and felt like I was going to throw up
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    She was cool about it I guess
  6. β€’
    I texted my friend to tell her I wasn't taking the job and therefore wasn't moving in with her
  7. β€’
    She didn't text back right away because she needed time to "grapple with the news" but she's "happy for me"
    Aka I think she hates me
  8. β€’
    I had my first day at the internship today
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    I had two groups of kids
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    They were all really excited about writing and that kind of energy made me really excited about writing too
  11. β€’
    We did this exercise where you get a bunch of random characters, obstacles, desires, etc
    I got to write about a sun, a moon, and having no money (what a coincidence. I laughed.)
  12. β€’
    I helped this one girl work on a character profile
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    I took a walk with my boss who is really cool
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    She told me if everything works out I could teach a class on ELA prep in February and they would pay me
    I'm trying not to get too excited about that.
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    I'm feeling okay
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    I'm in a much better mood than yesterday and the day before
  17. β€’
    I'm not excited to continue job searching but such is life
  18. β€’
    I spent $20 at cvs today because hey I gotta shower and I almost cried
  19. β€’
    I posted that list about needing advice as a way to vent; I was expecting maybe one or two people to comment on it
    And I could've guessed the people I was thinking hi @IreneC
  20. β€’
    I was not expecting twenty-one people (TWENTY-ONE!!!) to comment and give me awesome, genuine, and whole-hearted advice
  21. β€’
    I have so much gratitude for y'all, it was truly awesome and I can't believe I got that support from absolutely strangers when some of my friends and family can't even do that
  22. β€’
    Off-topic: right after the attacks in Beirut and Paris I had trouble sleeping. I literally could not fall asleep at night and stayed away from Facebook because people's comments and statuses would get me so worked up to the point I felt physically ill .I guess it's nice to see people who don't need to invest in me spend time giving me advice.
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    Shout out to the five or six or seven friends I frantically texted until 1am with my stupid and repetitive questions
    Especially to @bellaemath who I convinced to join @list after all the comments came barging in 😘
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    Imma be real annoying and tag everyone so y'all know how much I appreciate you 😘