1. I took the internship
  2. Idk if it was the right choice but it was a choice
  3. I went to bed nauseous and woke up nauseous
  4. I called the woman at the job and I could literally feel her disappoint over the phone
    I was shaking and felt like I was going to throw up
  5. She was cool about it I guess
  6. I texted my friend to tell her I wasn't taking the job and therefore wasn't moving in with her
  7. She didn't text back right away because she needed time to "grapple with the news" but she's "happy for me"
    Aka I think she hates me
  8. I had my first day at the internship today
  9. I had two groups of kids
  10. They were all really excited about writing and that kind of energy made me really excited about writing too
  11. We did this exercise where you get a bunch of random characters, obstacles, desires, etc
    I got to write about a sun, a moon, and having no money (what a coincidence. I laughed.)
  12. I helped this one girl work on a character profile
  13. I took a walk with my boss who is really cool
  14. She told me if everything works out I could teach a class on ELA prep in February and they would pay me
    I'm trying not to get too excited about that.
  15. I'm feeling okay
  16. I'm in a much better mood than yesterday and the day before
  17. I'm not excited to continue job searching but such is life
  18. I spent $20 at cvs today because hey I gotta shower and I almost cried
  19. I posted that list about needing advice as a way to vent; I was expecting maybe one or two people to comment on it
    And I could've guessed the people I was thinking hi @IreneC
  20. I was not expecting twenty-one people (TWENTY-ONE!!!) to comment and give me awesome, genuine, and whole-hearted advice
  21. I have so much gratitude for y'all, it was truly awesome and I can't believe I got that support from absolutely strangers when some of my friends and family can't even do that
  22. Off-topic: right after the attacks in Beirut and Paris I had trouble sleeping. I literally could not fall asleep at night and stayed away from Facebook because people's comments and statuses would get me so worked up to the point I felt physically ill .I guess it's nice to see people who don't need to invest in me spend time giving me advice.
  23. Shout out to the five or six or seven friends I frantically texted until 1am with my stupid and repetitive questions
    Especially to @bellaemath who I convinced to join @list after all the comments came barging in 😘
  24. Imma be real annoying and tag everyone so y'all know how much I appreciate you 😘