Things I Don't Understand Right Now

Confused about a lot
  1. Is there a God?
    Thought I knew how I felt about this. Not sure anymore.
  2. How do I grieve properly?
    Nothing seems right. I know it's personal for everyone who experiences it, but I just don't seem to know how to do it. Is it possible to do it and not notice?
  3. What the hell does delta mean in relation to financial options?!?!
  4. Why do I stay up late on nights I have to wake up early the next morning and go to bed early on nights I have endless time the following morning?
  5. Why am I dreading this weekend that is supposed to be so much fun?
  6. Spring, where are you?