I HAVE A LOT OF TROUBLE WITH...

  1. admitting when I'm wrong
    it's just your classic "knew-every-right-answer-all-the-time-but-now-doesn't-know-how-to-accept-her-fallibility" type of situation
  2. graciously accepting defeat
    see above
  3. holding myself accountable
    I've recently noticed how I often blame other things for my problems without actually scrutinizing the situation to find that 9/10 times, it's actually my fault
  4. listening objectively or at least calmly when someone calls me out on my shit
    I shut down when I feel like someone is saying something I don't like. 100% NOT the way to react when someone is just trying to help you. sorry mom :))
  5. being compassionate
    it's not that I don't care about what's happening to other people. in fact, I really do want to help others in any way possible. it's just that I don't know how to effectively show it
  6. being secure in myself
    always looking for validation. don't know how to stop.
  7. being open and honest
    I'm not good with emotions. at all.
  8. asking for help (even when I desperately need it)
    I like to be self-sufficient as much as possible. idk if this is a result of my fear of confrontation or bc I actually believe in self-reliance
  9. being disciplined with myself
    I just really don't know how to make myself do things I'm not interested in (I'm looking at u, homework)
  10. apologizing
    always circling back to how I hate being wrong
  11. being patient
    I like seeing the results of my work immediately. yes, yes the infamous "instant gratification" that typifies my generation
  12. being creative
    I told u, I'm unoriginal!!!!!!
  13. being forgiving
    I think about a lot of things a lot of the time. if some grudge just keeps popping up in my brain, I don't know how I'm supposed to let go of it???
  14. defying social norms or my own habits when I disagree/standing by my values & acting them out
    I want to find what it is that I truly believe and stand by it no matter what I'm faced with. currently finding it pretty difficult.
  15. managing time
    something I'm very good at: procrastinating, but that's for another list
  16. articulating anything really
    unless I'm talking about my favorite book/tv show/movie, I honestly do. not. know. how. to. talk.