WAYS IN WHICH I BELIEVE ANXIETY HOLDS ME BACK

I've got untreated anxiety, because life, you know? Here's how it strangles me, imo
  1. I'm often silent even if I have something to say
    I have a hard time believing that anyone wants to hear what I have to say. I once didn't talk an entire year of middle school because I was new and didn't want to embarrass myself
  2. I disappear within my own thoughts early and often
  3. Sometimes I burn myself out on ideas before I've even started them
    Because I've over-analyzed them so much that I'm already thinking of what I'm going to say in the interview about my genius and what talk shows I'm going to be on, etc.
  4. I want to be a creative but I can't free myself from myself in order to express any vulnerability
  5. Honesty was something I struggled with a lot as a child
    And it still requires thought for me to be truthful with my self and others
  6. Because I bottle so much up I feel like I need distractions at all times
  7. When I do actually socialize, I usually over-do it trying to combat my instincts
    Which leads to me embarrassing myself, and the cycle continues!
  8. I'm a creature of habit
  9. I medicate with sugar
    Way too much sugar. But also I love it, but also it's awful and causes more anxiety
  10. Yikes
    This list was really hard to make