April 25th, 2015: The Day My Brain Exploded
365 days later, my reflections.
- •one year ago today, I had my first seizure and all of the doctors who kept telling me my blinding headaches were "just migraines" had to EAT SHIT
- •I don't remember it, but my dad described to me what happened
- •I was at school with my friends, and all of a sudden I couldn't remember their names, where I was, or who I was. I didn't know my own name.
- •They naturally freaked out and walked me to the nurse, who called my parents. My dad drove me to the ER.
- •They strapped me down and moved me into the MRI machine and my body started to convulse.
- •My legs started twitching, I drew my arms up to my chest, my hands were twisted into cat claws as I shuddered and shook.
- •I screamed and screamed and screamed until I started to turn blue.
- •They took me out of the machine and air lifted me from my small town hospital to the Children's Hospital of Philadelphiaside note: if you're looking for a place to donate some money to, this is the place. The incredible doctors and nurses there saved my life, it's an amazing hospital and they need all the money they can get so people like me with rare diseases can be diagnosed and treated.
- •But one year after this day, after being misdiagnosed, getting better, getting sick again, being correctly diagnosed, taking a gap year, and going through chemo, I survived. I'm still here.
- •Sometimes it feels like a dream, this year went by so quickly and so slowly at the same time. There were some wonderful days were I felt positive and lucky that I was still breathing, and there were some days where I felt angry and bitter at my situation.
- •But today, I feel healthy and strong and powerful. Next year I'm going to my dream school, I have incredible, supportive friends family, and boyfriend and I'm going to move on with my life.
- •One year later, I'm still here.
- •I ENDURED, AND I'M STILL BREATHING
- •I AM STILL HERE