As of Today I Am Officially Finished With Chemo

  1. Today, February 15th, 2016, I finished chemo.
  2. I'm finally going to be able to go to college, move out, live my life.
  3. I got home after finishing up at the hospital and just broke down and cried. Not just a few tears, it was a torrential downpour of gut-wrenching, gasping-for-air sobbing.
  4. I cried out of happiness, out of exhaustion, out of anxiety, out of anger, out of frustration.
  5. I've been angry for a long time that I got so sick at such a young age (18).
  6. I've been going to therapy and I'm trying my best to not be bitter but it's been really difficult. Being 18 and fearing that this is the oldest you will live to be is very scary.
  7. But I finished chemo and my MRIs look great.
  8. If you don't know what I was dealing with medically, feel free to read about it: My Darkest Moment ⚫️
  9. So hopefully I'll be able to put this terrible year behind me and move on with my life.
  10. Thank you to everyone who stood by me through the worst year of my life. I love you all and appreciate your unwavering support.
  11. Sending out lots of love and good vibes out to other people who are sick and trying to find inner peace ❤️❤️
  12. I know it's hard and I know people are going to say all sorts of stupid shit to you like "everything happens for a reason" and "God has a plan" but do your best not to lash out, they're also doing their best.
  13. My favorite creative writing teacher of all time told me, "what matters most is how well you walk through the fire", a quote from Charles Bukowski that has become my personal motto.
  14. I think I walked through this fire pretty damn well.