Inspired by @boygirlparty and @JennyJLee
  1. First of all I would just like to say that All Lives Matter is not a thing. It's not worth saying. Of course all lives matter, but not all lives are being targeted and demoralized based on their skin color, because we are not one race, humankind is diverse and it is a gift that has been turned into a target. There's no sense in being "colorblind."
    It only furthers ignorance by insisting that we are all one. It's insulting to those who have faced discrimination. Slavery has only been over for a little over a century, between then and now is not enough time to overcome something like that. There's no escaping the mark its left on America, at least not for a long time through progress and understanding.
  2. White people, including myself, need to keep that in mind. There is a hierarchy in place that has existed for as long as society has, a set structure between classes based on privilege. At the top of this are the untouchables, straight white men.
  3. It's simply a matter of evidence. Police brutality is an indisputable fact that is running rampant, unnoticed in our society. Video evidence is being shown of policemen attacking black people, children even, and yet people still defend them! I take pride in my ability to see things from different points of view.
    But no matter which way you look at it these people DO NOT deserve to be thrown around, choked to death, shot several times, and left for dead for whatever reason. Especially not for the reasons these things are happening, selling CDs and carrying toy guns. These people are not harmful in the slightest and it sickens me to see them being murdered without any follow-up to even a court hearing. It's despicable. I feel like I'm living in a nation built on evil and it's terrifying.
  4. This group of individuals has no concept of the hierarchy because they have nowhere to climb. They're at the top, there's no other class to surpass. Their struggles as individuals are irrelevant to their class, no white man will ever be killed for his skin color. Straight men will never be killed for their sexuality.
    It's like they're at the top of a mountain, and for centuries people on top of that mountain have been throwing boulders down, knocking the other classes, destroying their hard work, and killing them mercilessly. Is everybody at the top of the mountain personally responsible? No, but they let it happen with silence. And no one can or will ever throw stones at them. They are immune to racism, because there is no one above them.
  5. It's important to remember that when I or other people trying to make a statement and referencing straight white men are obviously not implying that ALL these men are doing these things, but they all have the capacity and must take the responsibility. I am a part of a class that disrespects and dehumanizes individuals outside this class.
  6. Reverse racism is not a thing. Is it unfair that white people are mocked by black people? No. Because we are not affected long-term, we are not being demoralized, we are not being pushed down to their level. The jokes and names will never compare to the centuries of oppression and abuse they have endured.
  7. Whether or not I am the one who is specifically doing this is irrelevant. I have to acknowledge that I am an untouchable. I am not on the sinking ship, I am safe. And that is unfair. It's unjust, and no matter what I say, I can't get off that ship.
    The best I can do is cry out to save the drowning individuals who do not have my privileges. I can only try and help those who don't have my privileges, but I can't give them my spot. I can't just be a minority, I don't have their voice, I can only amplify their's.
  8. I wish I could do more. I don't have Twitter, and I don't post on Facebook. But I want to be more adamant in conversation. I want to be more conscious, and be more open about how I feel about this issue. I've been very silent up until this list, and I don't want to be anymore. I know I won't fix anything, but this silence is toxic, to me & America.
  9. I'm not saying anything that hasn't been said before, what I've said is a culmination of what I've heard from others. I've listened, I've reconsidered things I thought were concrete, I looked into the dark void and braced the ugly truth of my social class. I am doing this out of guilt. I have an obligation to point out the flaws of our system.
    I'm not seeking a stamp of approval, or a gold star that says I'm free to go. I don't have a goal to achieve, and no matter what I say I can't absolve for the years of discrimination that all people of color have faced. So why do it? Why put in the effort at all? Because I'm a human, and I'm fucking tired of seeing other humans die for terrible reasons. If you really think all lives matter, then you'll fight for them. Not just correct them when they specify whose dying at the hand of white men.
  10. You can't clean up a mess by acknowledging it, but I hope in breaking my silence I can at least ease the load.