1. I wanted to be one of those people today who could find a glimmer of light in the darkness, a reason not to be scared but to be motivated to make a change.
  2. But I couldn't be.
  3. Because I am scared. I'm worried about everyone I know and everyone I don't know.
  4. And I feel cheated.
  5. She deserved better. We all deserved better.
  6. So for today, I will be sad.
  7. Probably tomorrow too.
  8. It'll be a while before I can put my game face on.
  9. But that doesn't mean I'm not willing to stand beside 49% of Americans to fight for change.
  10. It just means that won't be today.