are the worst. let me tell you, people of, the things that I won't tell him.
  1. it's exhausting to want something so badly that you know you won't have.
  2. every time I see your name pop up on my phone, I get butterflies. nausea-inducing, hands-shaking, heart-pounding butterflies.
  3. as much as cutting off all contact would be beneficial for me, I can't seem to delete you (from social media or my life).
  4. the made-up scenarios in my head are crazy & completely improbable, but that doesn't stop me from daydreaming about the conversations that we'll never have.
  5. i'm so much myself when i'm with you. you're where I want to make my home.
  6. this sucks.