Black Lives Matter

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  1. It took me a few days to process all of this. I struggle for clarity when overwhelmed with a multitude of emotions.
  2. And I am really emotional, so this will be a jumbled array of thoughts.
  3. Aside from stepping back and listening, reading, and absorbing others' meaningful words the last few days, I've noticed (not on here but on Facebook) a disquieting amount of posts proclaiming that blue lives matter.
  4. And immediately, I felt anger. I felt discouraged, exasperated.
  5. But then it hit me.
  6. It's a privilege to only feel discouraged. If exasperation and anger are the hardest feelings I have to tackle, then I must be damn lucky.
  7. I'm not worried, or nervous, afraid for my life, afraid for my family's lives.
  8. I'm not going to feel a horrible fear in the pit of my stomach when I see a police car coming up behind me with his lights flashing.
  9. Interacting with the people who are supposed to protect you should not be a fearful experience.
  10. The people who are supposed to protect you should not be the reason you lose your life.
  11. Yet, here we are, once again. Looking at police with blood on their hands as we have done far too many times before.
  12. And, once again, facing another round of "blue lives matter!" and "one bad apple shouldn't spoil the whole bunch!"
  13. Social media rants about someone's family member being a cop and how they have to risk their lives for us everyday.
  14. Whether these things are true or not is not even relevant because these are tactics used to derail the more important conversation.
  15. Sure, cops' lives matter, but when they don't respect black lives, who the hell is doing the serving and protecting? They certainly are not.
  16. One bad apple shouldn't spoil the whole bunch, but it's not one, it's hundreds. So when do we consider this bunch spoiled? Better yet, how is anyone supposed to know which cop is walking up to their window - the good apple or the bad one?
  17. You may have a cop in the family, and he/she may be a wonderful, honorable example of what law enforcement should be. You're lucky to have that. But that still doesn't negate the fact that police brutality is largely directed towards black people.
  18. You see, these should be separate points and not tools you use to shut down a conversation you're too ignorant to engage in.
  19. These points should not be used to prove that police matter more than the people they're hired to protect.
  20. And by the way, blue lives? That is a job, not a race. A privileged white man takes his cop uniform off and he's still a privileged white man. Please stop comparing the two. It's not just reductive, it's an unfair and inaccurate comparison.
  21. This is going to be a moment in history that we look back on. I want to look back and feel like I did everything in my power to speak up, to act, to create change rather than sitting around quietly, waiting for it to happen. I hope you'll join me.
  22. #blacklivesmatter