1. on Monday, I began pretending I was dying today. this makes the whole ordeal more exciting. the IV, the mask, all of that - I'm just gonna pretend I'm literally getting put to death. I truly have lived these days like my last
  2. in about two hours, I'm deleting every social media app off of my phone, TURNING IT OFF, and leaving it at home while I go to surgery. I'm so paranoid about doing something dumb tbh.
  3. I ate like 5 meals yesterday with the excuse that I "had to fast for my surgery tomorrow." which is true, but not that true.
  4. get myself hella nervous