Things I miss about my son Jesse

My son Jesse committed suicide in November of 2005. I think about him every day and things I wish I could share with him.
  1. Going to movies
    I've always loved movies and would take him to see everything from an early age. I took him to see The Crying Game and Pulp Fiction when he was he was about 12 and he loved them. He would've loved the new Star Wars, Inglorious Basterds , Up and all the indie films that have come out in the last 10 years. And Tim Burton films. He really loved Tim Burton.
  2. iPhones
    I think he would've loved the whole idea of texting, apps and that they actually have video cameras in them.
  3. Gluten free everything
    He was sick a lot the last few years of his life but they could never find anything wrong. It often seemed connected with eating. I think maybe he had a food allergy and it would be so much easier to deal with now.
  4. TV
    Breaking Bad, Game of Thrones, Walking Dead, Dexter, Silicon Valley , Veep, House of Cards.
  5. Talking
    I could talk to him more easily than anyone I have ever known . He totally got me. I think maybe he was more like me than my other children and that makes me sad because I think maybe that's where his depression came from.
  6. Books
    He was so smart and his tastes so eclectic. He's one of the only people I know who actually read Stephen Hawking's book ,"the theory of everything ". But he also loved Harry Potter and the Narnia books. When I read "the Goldfinch", it made me think of him.
  7. Comedy
    He was really funny and appreciated good smart comedy. He would've loved Louis CK, Sarah Silverman, Zach Galifinakis, Trevor Noah, Amy Shumer. He loved David Sedaris and Sacha Baron Cohen. I can't believe he didn't get to see the movie "Borat".
  8. The fact that I will never be able to just touch him again.
    Sometimes the fact of that makes me almost have a panic attack. Even now after 10 years.